Patterns

Are often hard to see and harder to derail.  Kind of like Monday-Morning-Quarterbacks, we see them and know what alternative plays “should” have been made after they have happened.  Maybe see the patterned behaviours from another perspective, in the bigger picture of how they fit in our emotional/social personality – but still after the fact.  I guess the question is, how to not-manifest old patterns that no longer serve us (and maybe never did … ?).  These days I wonder how much of being able to see-in-advance that a pattern is going to kick in depends on how much awareness we have of the pre-pattern-”requiring” environment.  In what contexts do we rely on old habits, and how do we recognize the context as such before the patterned behaviour kicks in as a way to avoid it … Just a thought …

the road we travel

winds, twists, turns … meanders, up hills, down hills. companions by our side. us by theirs. and it is bliss. once they are gone, grief impedes our ability to see. that the bliss remains. love every day

5 april 1993 - 13 july 2008